Monday, January 30, 2012

100 Days #7

Today's reading is Matthew 7. Read it HERE.

Some of Jesus' words and my uneducated, super random thoughts on them:

"3 Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye?" We all have sin in our lives, but its so much easier to identify and dislike sin in other people. We need to focus on bettering ourselves instead of bringing judgment onto others.

"7 Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened." This sounds so easy! Am I doing something wrong here!? LOL! I think this is in reference to finding salvation, but it doesn't seem quite clear, like maybe if I ask for a million dollars... heheh!

13 “Enter by the narrow gate. For the gate is wide and the way is easy that leads to destruction, and those who enter by it are many. 14 For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few." It takes around twelve weeks to establish a good habit, and about two weeks to pick up a bad one. It's definitely easier to go wrong than right in this life. I've gotta watch where I'm going and stay on track; I wanna make it through that narrow gate!

"17 So, every healthy tree bears good fruit, but the diseased tree bears bad fruit. 18 A healthy tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a diseased tree bear good fruit.We can say we're 'good people' or 'Christians' or whatever else makes us feel special, but really it has nothing to do with what we say about ourselves. It's about how we live life. Its about the fruit we produce. I'm always telling my kids at work that they can only do 'bad things' for so long before they're just plain 'bad people.' Our deeds will speak for us...

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Week 2 of Too Much of Me Mondays! Over the past week I've been to the gym for a kick-butt workout three times and went on one semi-epic hike. So, that's four days of respectable exercise total. I've eaten less, avoided unnecessary carbs and sugar, and kept an eye on my caloric intake. No astonishing results as of yet, but I'm feeling better and have dropped a couple pounds. 

Sunday, January 29, 2012

project

San Pasqual High has replaced their projector in the multipurpose room we use for the Branches' Sunday morning services. (Been there? If not, you should!) I'm ecstatic about the upgrade. The images are so crisp.

I love carefully detailing each project for church, whether its a background for the worship slides, an announcement slide, or a new series image. Its a way for me to use my creativity, photography, and eye for detail as means to serve God.

But in this act of service, I am human and flawed. I want everything to look great, so when I've spent hours perfecting the minute details of a sunset backdrop to compliment the carefully chosen font I've used to present the lyrics of the worship set... and the old dying bulb in the projector makes everything just look like fuzzy blobs of neon ooze... I get a tad bit annoyed.

The new projector projects the images I've spent the week tolling over beautifully. My flesh is pleased. But more importantly, we're back to giving God our best and serving our congregation a higher quality service.

Mi gusto mucho.

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Learning and worship at the Branches!
See empty chairs? They're waiting for your butts to fill 'em!

So come on!!!

San Pasqual HS, Escondido CA. Sundays at 10:45am!

so pretty

Saturday, January 28, 2012

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Thursday was a great day at work. I was chipper and peppy. Things were chaotic, but in a good way; just enough to keep me busy and interested, but not so much that it was overwhelming.

Friday was similar as far as the work conditions, but I was a tad bit irritable. The water just wasn't rolling off my back quite like it did Thursday.

And then today... oh, today. Today I was the Uber Grouch.
Seriously.

I was one giant exposed nerve.
A giant exposed nerve being poked at by some very hyperactive group home children.

Here's hoping tomorrow will be a whole new day!

100 Days #6

Day 6, Matthew 6!

"Beware of practicing your righteousness before other people in order to be seen by them, for then you will have no reward from your Father who is in heaven." Matthew 6:1

My thoughts: One of the major themes that jumps out at me from this book is the importance to have a humble heart. Our deeds are pointless when done for the applaud of men. Everything must be done for the honor and glory of God.

Lord, continue reminding me that everything I do must be done for Your name and not my own.

From the mouth of babes

Him: Man, look at that fool. He's all like 'duhh!' What a retard! He's so retarded! Look at him!

Me: Um, you know, since your arm is broken and you're wearing that cast, you're technically retarded now.

Him: (long pause, eyes cast down, looking ashamed) Oh... sorry man... (Speaking towards the gentleman across the street he was mocking earlier)

Me: I'm just kidding. You were retarded way before you broke your arm. Nah, not really...

Him: (sheepish smile) Oh. I believed you.

Me: I know you did.  Don't make fun of people, got it?

Him: (lots of laughter) okay!

     *it definitely won't stick, but creative interventions are a blast :-)

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Chasing the kids from work around Nickel City.
Good times.

Love Regardless


*these people rock

Friday, January 27, 2012

100 Days #5

Matthew 5.
I LOVE this book!

Light of the world. Salt of the Earth. Beatitudes.
LOVE it all!


Lord, make me hunger for righteousness; create in me a clean heart. Thank you for Your mercy, and I pray I am able to demonstrate Your mercy to others, so they'd know Your love for them. Make me a vessel for Your light, that I might lead others to You.

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Today one of the maintenance men of the facility I work at brought in his falcon, Poncho, for the kids to see. He flew laps around the field, then the kids got to feed him the still warm heart and liver of a pigeon he'd killed earlier.

It was totally awesome.
And disgusting.

Such a  beautiful bird! I'm always surprised at how calm the kids become around animals. Guess God knew what He was doing when He put us all here on this rock together...

Thursday, January 26, 2012

100 Days #4

Day 4, Matthew 4. Read it!

"The people dwelling in darkness have seen a great light, and for those dwelling in the region and shadow of death, on them a light has dawned." Matthew 4:16

"From that time Jesus began to preach, saying, “Repent, for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.”" Matthew 4:17

"And he said to them, “Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.” Immediately they left their nets and followed him. And going on from there he saw two other brothers, James the son of Zebedee and John his brother, in the boat with Zebedee their father, mending their nets, and he called them. Immediately they left the boat and their father and followed him." Matthew 4:19-22

Again, lots in this chapter. I have a lot are random, unconnected thoughts. Here's just a few: Jesus withstood great temptations. His first followers left everything behind to follow Him. As in chapter 3, the concept of repentance come up.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Seriously, so far...

Earlier this month I wrote a post about a new year's resolution I may or may not have made. 

Well, at this point, I think I can legitimately say I did, in fact, make a resolution.

Basically, as I do every year, I resolved to get more serious. In life. In general.

So far? This is definitely the most serious I've ever taken being serious.

I've applied for grad school, I've begun to live the life of a real grown-up with a schedule and routine, I've been in the bible and in prayer consistently, I'm pushing myself creatively, I'm doing more around the house, being more financially involved...

It's a good feeling. I told Kimberly I didn't realize how good these little things could make me feel; the rush of a completed 'to-do' list. The pride and satisfaction of finished projects. Actually getting out of bed and doing something before leaving for work...

I like it. Seriously.

*God is good and my wife is supportive. I'm blessed.

100 Days #3

Day 3!
Matthew 3.

You read it, too!
Just click on the link.


"Bear fruit in keeping with repentance."
Matthew 3:8

“I baptize you with water for repentance, but he who is coming after me is mightier than I, whose sandals I am not worthy to carry. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire." 
Matthew 3:11-12

Thoughts: There's a lot in this chapter that stands out to me: the word "repentance" is used twice, John's response to the Pharisees and Sadducees, John's ascetic lifestyle, when people went to the Jordan to be baptized they confessed their sins, I love John's response when Jesus comes to him to be baptized.. lots that stand out!

Lord, help me seek true repentance.  Baptize me in your Holy Spirit.

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- been feeling good
- motivated
     - working out
     - eating healthy
     - reading bible
- excited about the prospect of going back to school
- sleeping great! had a couple 'off' nights last week, but am fine now
- enjoying creative work

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

100 Days #2

Day 2 down!
Join me.
Read Matthew 2.

 "...behold, the star that they had seen when it rose went before them until it came to rest over the place where the child was. When they saw the star, they rejoiced exceedingly with great joy. And going into the house they saw the child with Mary his mother, and they fell down and worshiped him." Matthew 2:9-11

My thoughts: These men, they weren't just following a star. They were following their hearts; their faith. They believed in something and chased after it. There had to be some uncertainty, but it didn't interfere with them reaching their destination. I want to be like these men, to recognize a sign when its right before me. To follow, chase, pursue.

And this star itself, it shined like a beacon, guiding the wise men to Christ. It had to rise above, to shine brightly; it had to be exceptional in order to be recognized enough to be followed. 

Lord, increase in my heart the desire for You. Consume my thoughts until I cannot help but to pursue You in every waking moment. Continue Your work in me. Use me for Your will. Do exceptional things through me, that I could be like the star of Bethlehem, and drawl others close to You.


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Hiking at Elfin Forest. Overlooking Olivenhein Dam. Its a beautiful day.

Monday, January 23, 2012

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Watching Underworld: Awakening with my lovely wife.
We've been hanging out together since about 4pm.

We'll most likely spend 9 or 10 hours together consecutively today.
That happens...not often enough...

It's been nice.
Really nice.

And the movie was great.

100 Days #1

Day 1 complete!
Matthew 1.

Read it! It took no time at all.
And I made it effortless for you by adding the link ;o)

My thoughts: “Behold, the virgin shall conceive and bear a son, and they shall call his name Immanuel...” - Matthew 1:23

Immanuel. I love this word. "God with us." Always.
Lord, help me remember you are always with me, even when I don't feel like it, and increase my faith in You, that nothing is impossible.

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Yes, I purposely posted this picture of myself.

Why? Masochism, I guess.

In this picture I'm wearing some of the awesome pieces of clothing Kimberly got me for Christmas from LA.

The problem is, there's just too much of me!

I know, I know... I'm so 'on again, off again.' 
But right now I'm 'on again.' So, whatev.

Starting now, every Monday I will subject myself to the humiliation of posting an updated picture of me wearing these same clothes until its no longer an act of humiliation. 

It will take weeks, maybe months, and who knows!? Maybe even years! But if I have to squeeze all my junk into this outfit every Monday until I'm 74 years old, then that's what I'll do... in theory...

So, here's week one! 

Sadly I must admit the side profile picture doesn't quite do my girth any justice. The act of forcing this shirt to button around me was basically like putting a girdle on! I'm pretty sure there's some internal bruising...

Welcome to 'Too Much of Me Mondays'!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Today I was blessed...

... by the worship of these two ladies.

In unity with one another. 

In community with their Creator.

Beautiful.

"Ascribe to the Lord the glory due his name; bring an offering and come before him! Worship the Lord in the splendor of holiness;"  

-1 Chronicles 16:29

Drip Drop

It's the rainy season here in SoCal.
I've gotta say, I love it.

It's peaceful. It's the sound it makes...
It's how green everything becomes...

It's that cozy feeling of staying inside, yet not feeling trapped because you know that in about an hour its gonna stop raining and be all sunny again.

And its always neat to find someone who feels the same way about winter as I do! Its a special kind of camaraderie. So SMILE ;o)

Saturday, January 21, 2012

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Sipping on a delicious Apple Chill Slurpee while songwriting on the Mac with Nate and a kiddo from work playing Spiro on the Wii in the background. Yep, we're working hard! Lol!

the day

"Today's the day I'm getting back on track!"  I thought.

Until I saw that big hot stack of grilled cheese sandwiches...
And then all self-control was lost.

I must've eaten four or five.

Maybe tomorrow will be the day!
Or maybe the next day.
Or....

100 Days

I need to keep motivated, and so do you! So let’s do this together! The plan is easy. All you have to do is click HERE, and its all laid out for you.

I’m going to begin Monday, January 23rd. When are you starting?

Friday, January 20, 2012

missing

Screaming like a demon.

Thrashing around.
Bashing his head against the walls.

Biting his own arms until the skin bursts.

Punching himself in the face until he's spitting out blood.
Then a tooth.

It's almost perfect: a missing tooth to match a missing mother.
That is what triggered this, after all.

It's been weeks since he's seen her last. This morning she was supposed to show up.
And, of course, she didn't.

Maybe she doesn't love him? Maybe something bad happened to her? Maybe she's dead? 
In reality, she probably just didn't save up enough money for the bus ride, or maybe she woke up with a hangover. But thinking rationally isn't possible for this kid...

All he knows is that he misses his mommy...
He didn't get to see her today when he thought he would...
He completely lost his mind for about ten minutes...

And now, he's missing a tooth.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

"Trust your struggle."

I'm not sure of the artists inspiration.
Or if I'm interpreting it as they'd hope.

But I guess that's the beauty of art.

I love this photograph.
I love the script.

I love what it says. What is says to me, at least...

one thousand five-hundred and eighty-four

That's how many pageviews I've had so far this month.
1,584.
Weird.

Is it the randomness?
Must be the randomness...

Anyways, thanks for sharing life with me!

Oh, and Jesus loves you!
I should probably start writing things like 'Jesus love you' more often...

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A little anxious. Just a little. Its somewhere between the top of my stomach and the bottom of my throat. It? Well, that buzzy tingly 'ooh, look! I'm falling!' kinda feeling. Over what? Not sure. Its lingering. Although I have had some serious, 'oh no!' moments today after talking, texting, or emailing; just freaking out that I might use the wrong words and hurt or upset people or be misunderstood. Dumb words. I have a love/hate relationship with them...

But other than that, all is well. Motivated, sleeping good, being semi-healthy (although today is an exception).

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Wreak and Recover

Today I spent some time contacting several different people to request recommendation letters for graduate school. One of those people, one I who respect professionally and look up to as a doctor of psychology, emailed me in warning of the particular school I'm applying to. Her concerns were disheartening, and the fact that they came from this specific individual made it even worse.

To be honest, it wreaked me.
Completely. Its lame, I know.
But I discourage easily at times.

But after a nice hot shower, some prayer, and chat with my wife, I'm feeling better. God's been with me through this process so far, and He's not going anywhere. Sure, I have a few new questions for my admissions counselor, but I'm not gonna freak out.

God's not going anywhere.

I just need to be proactive. Not reactive.
And work through it.

Wreak and recover.

good day

*La Jolla, CA

Monday, January 16, 2012

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Working on a new song with Nate. Its been a while since we've worked on something completely new. Feels good...

what's worse

"I have three things I'd like to say today. First, while you were sleeping last night, 30,000 kids died of starvation or diseases related to malnutrition. Second, most of you don't give a shit. What's worse is that you're more upset with the fact that I said shit than the fact that 30,000 kids died last night."

-Tony Campolo

Saturday, January 14, 2012

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"I hate you! I'm gonna %@#$ you up! I'm gonna kill you and no one will find your %@#$+/? body! Just the thought of killing you brings me so much joy! Why can't I just %@#$+/? kill you!"

Oh, the warm fuzzies of childcare...

going green

My new 'do, thanks to a kid getting overzealous with the puff paint. And yes, there will be consequences...

darkness has not over come it

"In him was life, and the life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it."

- John 1:4-5

Book of 1 John

 
* If you haven't noticed, I kinda have a thing for light right now...

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- feeling good about little things
- motivated
- excited for the future
- feeling good, chipper
- sleep hasn't been my friend the past 2 nights ;-(
* manic? idk. but I'm feeling good. minus the no sleep thing...

Friday, January 13, 2012

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I can see the ocean from my booth at Denny's.
Denny's. I can see the ocean. From Denny's.

Weird. In a good way....

* On a side note, my waitress dislikes her supervisor. Even though he's a 'rich Mexican,' he still uses Spanish when talking to the 'poor Mexican' kitchen staff. 
 And that just encourages 'it.' I haven't quite figured out what 'it' is exactly, but I'm guessing she's referring their... Mexicanness? Or something like that... Wow. 

But the pancakes were delish and the coffee fresh. 
And as mentioned, the view ain't bad either :-)

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I just handed in my application for school!

With any luck, I'll be passing by this beautiful fountain a couple times a week beginning in March!

Prayers I'm accepted!
Please ;o)

Thursday, January 12, 2012

unemployed graduates

Education and hard work: that's all you need to succeed in the real world. Or so we're taught. I've done a little Googling. It seems that at least 20% of the unemployed in the USA have an extended academic education.

I've had conversations recently with a couple of unemployed graduates. One is a lifelong friend. She's brilliant, and undoubtedly good at whatever she puts her mind to. The other is a newer friend. A very kind man, educated, experienced, and passionate.

Both are over qualified. Over qualified for the jobs they're educated for. Over qualified for the jobs they've worked hard for. And what does it even mean to be over qualified? I'm not exactly sure, but I'm guessing it means, "You cost too much to pay adequately, so instead you'll get nothing."

I get it. Everyone is struggling. Schools are struggling. Businesses. Non-profits. Ministries. Everyone. The money just isn't there to pay out.

But I've been thinking about this. I've developed a special place in my heart for the unemployed graduates. Just think, who are graduates? Most likely, people with lots of ambition and drive. People who, in one capacity or another, have succeeded. People who've become accustomed to a way of life. People who've developed a sense of belonging in society based on their careers and education. And now, for a significant portion of them, that world doesn't exist anymore...
It's been destroyed.

My heart is heavy for them. These people, they may never again see the world they once knew. But that doesn't mean they won't rediscover belonging. And that's what I pray for them the most: belonging. Belonging, where works are the fruit of faith, not a requisite for worth or value.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

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Watching "Clifford the Big Red Dog" in good company!

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Hiking!


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I feel good. Mostly.

Today I met with the admissions counselor of Argosy college and have decided to officially apply to their masters program of counseling psych and begin a long journey to becoming a licensed therapist. I feel very encouraged and supported, and am looking forward to the possibilities and new challenges. I'm as equally nervous and overwhelmed as I am excited, but the mere fact that these two extremes exist within balance of one another is healthy.... I think.

I've been feeling a little more motivated lately. I didn't get as much done as I wanted today, but I did manage to visit La Jolla after my meeting with Argosy, get my haircut and visit with my wife at work, give the bathroom a good scrub down, and run an errand at the mall.

Small steps, but a leap or two from spending a majority  of my time lounging. And with my current ambitions of schooling, it seems my motivation isn't just focused on the now, but on tomorrow as well, which has always been something I struggle with.

So, yay for motivation.

Thank you, God, for your constant grace, for the great people you've put in my life, and for good pharmaceuticals!

- motivated
- encouraged
- slightly paranoid about relationships
- a little overwhelmed
- sleeping wonderfully still
- feeling inadequate yet capable to grow
- desiring to pursue God strongly
- creative

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

whole new direction

Most rape prevention approaches are geared towards women and prospective victims.

Travel in packs. Don't go home with strangers. Don't leave your drinks unattended. Don't dress too provocatively, etc.

You've heard the drill.

But this new campaign is taking a whole new direction, with efforts towards prospective rapists instead of victims.

It's an interesting twist, encouraging men to use self-control to express their strength and power; essentially the opposite of rape.

I like this approach. I don't think they've quite hit the mark yet, but its a good start.

Teaching boys to not grow up and be rapists. What a concept.

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Lovin' La Jolla...


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- My Mac charger has gone kaput and my Mac just ran out of juice. Sad face :-( Gonna be hitting the mall tomorrow for sure!

- Visiting a school in the AM in San Diego so they can give me their salesman's pitch for their masters' program for counseling psych. I'm excited to learn more!

- Had a nice day with my wife. I've gotten so used to not really seeing each other very often that when we do finally get a day together, it makes me sad for what we're missing. Le sigh. But alas, a good day is a good day!

- Greek food is yummy.

- I miss Lori Brow.

- Me thinks I might go on a big hike the day after tomorrow! Anyone wanna join?

Monday, January 9, 2012

endure

No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.

1 Corinthians 10:13

this song makes me peppy

Sunday, January 8, 2012

To Witness

I believe.

I believe real men and woman saw Jesus' face, heard his voice, and felt his touch. I believe real men and woman witnessed the miracles he performed and saw Him with their very own eyes after his resurrection, heard the gospel from his very own mouth and were encouraged personally by God himself. I believe His hands held a foot to wash it, that His touch healed, and that he gave the best hugs; the kind that are warm and make you feel loved and cared for.

I believe.

Today James challenged us at the Branches to imagine what it'd be like to be a firsthand witness to Jesus' life on Earth; to see, hear, and feel.

Witnessing Him in Spirit?
Powerful.

Witnessing Him in corporal form?
Unimaginable.

To see His face. To hear His voice. To feel His touch.
To witness.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

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Blah. Blah. Blah.
I've just felt blah today.

At any moment I wasn't actually moving, I was sleeping. Irresponsibly. It was almost as if I didn't have an option.

I just felt too... blah for anything else.

But feeling blah is way better than feeling bleh, so I'm not complaining :-)

Friday, January 6, 2012

Look

I'm thinking about changing up my blog look. I like this current header. Its dark and mysterious, but I'm thinking of going with something a little brighter.

We shall see...

Thursday, January 5, 2012

righteousness

"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, and are justified by his grace as a gift, through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus, whom God put forward as a propitiation by his blood, to be received by faith. This was to show God's righteousness, because in his divine forbearance he had passed over former sins."

Romans 3:23-25

Unblock me!

Ruminating on some lines for a song.
Well, one line, actually.

And when it finally comes to me, the whole thing is gonna fall right together.
I just know it.

And I can't wait.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

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- Feeling good. Staying on task, mostly. Motivated.
- Somewhat paranoid. Just a little anxious that although things seem okay, maybe they're really not.
- still sleeping well!
- been feeling artsy/crafty.

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

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Looking up from the hot tub through silhouetted palm fronds to see a big white moon and a sky sprinkled with stars, while sipping champagne with my wife.

Life. Is. Good.

Resolutions? Seriously...

Almost every year for a while now, I make the same New Year's resolution: GET SERIOUS.

I'm financially involved and well focused. In small spurts.
I'm dedicated to being a good husband to my wife. In small spurts.
I strive for professional development. In small spurts.
I live a healthy lifestyle. In small spurts.
I work to grow creatively. In small spurts.
I pursue God fervently. In small spurts.

I work towards a lot of things, but never for very long.
Every year I hope to get more serious about life in general.

And in retrospect, I have.
A tiny bit.

But clearly, a 'tiny bit' is not indicative of taking seriousness seriously.

So, will this be my resolution yet again?
It depends all on how serious I decide to take it...

So we'll just have to see.
Seriously.

the end? heheh!

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Today's little misadventure was... well, unexpected. Nate and I both picked up an extra shift today and decided to go hiking afterward.

We went to the Oak Riparian and Lake Calavera of Carlsbad, and had a good time hiking.

Right before making it back to the car, I realized I didn't have my car keys.

I suddenly remembered that when we had first made it all the way through the park and to the base of the mountain, I hiked up my britches before beginning the climb upwards (as any respectable fellow with ill-fitting pants would). I also remembered how one of my belt loops broke as I pulled up my pants.

And then I remembered that I usually clip my keys to that particular belt loop.
Yep. Leave it to me.

So there we were, thinking we'd finished up a long hike... to realize it just begun!

We hauled butt all the way through the park again until we reached the base of the mountain once more. And of course, by this time, it was dark.

Thank God for smart phones with flashlight apps!

And Thank God for the kind anonymous hiker who found my keys before me and splayed them out ever-so-obviously on a rock out in the open, making them super easy to find in the dark!

And thank God for my brave friend who would traipse through the shadow shrouded forest with me at night, which may or may not have been seething with hungry mountain lions and tweeked out gangsters...

And then we managed to get a little lost on the way home.
But that's another little misadventure in itself...

Monday, January 2, 2012

Love regardless

Maybe it's God's way of humbling me.

I mean, I get pretty self-righteous sometimes. I work day after day with these kids that'd make most men beg for a vasectomy. And I do it well.

Then BAM!
That ONE kid.
For WHATEVER reason.
IRKS. MY.  NERVE.

Its not always the same kid. And its not always the same pet peeve. But one way or another, some little bugger works his way under my armor, and all defenses against his unbecoming qualities diminish.

Now is one of those times. A kid has risen to the occasion, taking the role only few have ever been able to fill.

And just to look at him... just to think of him...

So here I sit..
Frustrated...
Humbled...

Praying God makes me love regardless, regardless of whether I want to or not.

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Feeling ambitious! And for the most part my ambitions seem within the realm of reality :-)

- Thoughts racing around potential lyrics for a new(ish) song.
- Excitedly (and a little obsessively?) working on an interactive blog to coordinate with a bible reading plan. I wanna push for a Jan 10th launch, so its work work work!
- Looking into and thinking more about school...

Today I was a little irritable,  but mostly because I wasn't feeling quite up to par (recuperating from laryngitis) and the kids at work were irksome.

Mostly, I'm content :-)

Been sleeping wonderfully recently. Love it!