Are You Kidding?!?!

This is only Tuesday, but I have already asked myself, "Are you kidding!?!?" so many times. But instead of actually verbalizing this thought, I have to make the most ridiculously obvious statements, such as these: - "Well, I'm sure your attic is very nice, but it's still not appropriate to lock your child in it. " - "I understand that this line of work can be overwhelming at times, but saying "$!#? this!" is not a positive way to role model stress management for our clients, and I'm going to have to ask you to never do that again." - "You know, I think you have a lot of self-control. I don't think the devil is in control of you right now, and your medical records don't show any sign of something latched onto your brain like you described to me . Maybe you should lay down."

Just a few examples. And yes, I've had or am preparing to have every one of these conversations. Some of them again. The cursing in front of the kids thing? Yeah, that's tomorrow at 3:00 pm.It's going to be terrible. Prayers appreciated ;o)

We're All Here . . .

Today we watched Horton Hears a Who. My favorite part of the movie is when the Mayor of the Who's convinces his people to believe that Horton, a giant elephant holding their whole world on a clover with his trunk, is real. The mayor simply states to Horton, "We're all here, Horton, and we all believe in you!" Now bare with me here, because this is a stretch, but Horton made me think a lot of Jesus. He was willing to sacrifice everything to save a world of people who doubted his very existence. Horton didn't change his mind about risking his life to save the Who's after they rejected him, he continued pressing on. Now, Horton was obviously not the son of God, and he was not crucified, but there are some similarities here. Right? And somehow this silly movie broke my heart, to think that even as Christ was nailed to the cross, he didn't get a "We are all here, Jesus, and we all believe in you!" And I can't describe how much, or why, but I want Him to have that moment so badly. I want to be one of the microscopic Who's in the background, screaming praises to the savior who has come to save our tiny little speck, saying , "We are all here, Jesus, and we all believe in you!"

Late Night/Early Morning Randomness

-It's 3:30am. I'm exhausted but can't seem to sleep. -I have a strange feeling I can't describe. It's similar to anxiousness, but somehow very different. -I also have a weird feeling in my nose. It's almost like that tingling feeling you get right before a nosebleed. Perhaps its just my spider senses tingling ;o) -I have a song stuck in my head that I wrote a couple weeks ago. It doesn't feel finished, which makes me crazy. I feel like God wants me to share it when its done, so maybe that's why I'm obsessing so much about it. -In my sickness and boredom I started reading Twilight, much to Kimberly's delight. So far I'm a big fan. -I want spinach ravioli. Mmm . . . -My head hurts, but I think its from not eating much. -Supernatural is an addictive series. We blazed through season one, finishing it up today then started season two, four episodes deep! -I wonder where some people get their sense of entitlement from and am amazed at just how inconsiderate some people can be. I've come to expect it from certain people and yet it still hurts when I see them use others as a door mat. -Now after reading Twilight, the book of Luke, and blogging randomness, I'm going to give falling asleep and third shot!

Pity Party

Today I had a little pity party for myself. I am still having some stomach sickness, and although I'm not making quite as many trips to the bathroom, some new symptoms have popped up including another stinking sore throat and a headache. Kimberly did a little research and thinks that my "flu bug" might actually be more related to my ulcers and acid reflux, symptoms of which could have flared up after eating some bad food the other day. And by bad, I mean really good. I began feeling sorry for myself. When will I feel better? Is this how sick I'll get every time I self-indulge? Then I started thinking about having to go back to work tomorrow, still not feeling great. Do I have to? Yes, I have no choice in that matter. And I really can't stand my job right now anyway. Also, I began examining a particular relationship I have with someone who I love dearly, but am so frustrated with right now. Sometimes I feel used and manipulated by this person, and I began wondering about how significant I really am to them. Which led me to wonder my significance overall. Yeah, I know. Wah! I told you it was a pity party. But it was short lived. And now I just feel ashamed for forgetting how blessed I am. For my health. For having a job. For my friends and family who I know care. One positive thing about pity parties is that they always seem to end with rejoice. Weird.

I Feel Like Pooh Song

So yeah, I still feel terrible. I think I might have the stomach flu. I have a song stuck in my head that I use to sing to my cousin Collins when I was his caregiver. It's called the "I Feel Like Pooh Song." I would sing it to him in this crazy voice when he was sick, and it always made him laugh despite how miserable he was. Because of his health problems, he was sick a lot, so it felt great to get a laugh out of him. The crazy voice and tune of the song would always stay the same, but the words would change according to his symptoms. Today, we would have sang something a little like this:

This is the I feel like pooh song Because my stomach hurts and I want to puke too And thats why I hate feeling like pooh!

It might not be the most beautiful song I've written, but it always made Collins crack up ;o)