Hush: Goodbye to Blogging . . . For a While

I feel like things are going to be changing in my life soon. And it's scary. It's exciting to think God might be using me to do something new, but for some reason I am fearful. I'm barely comfortable where I'm at now in life . My comfort zone has been extended over the past several weeks and I'm just now becoming accustomed to it, but it's not quite what God would like for it to be just yet.

I'm not sure what He wants me to do, where to go, or how to get there. But it's not this.

No more processing. It's time for prayer. It's time for me to stop asking, to stop speaking, and just listen. Hush.

Today at Youth Group, Pink talked about prayer and discussed how the number 40 is significant in the bible. He inspired me to really focus on praying and listening to God over the next 40 days.

So along with some other things, I'm am going to stop blogging for the next 40 days. Oddly enough, this feels like a big sacrifice for me. Blogging has been a wonderful experience for me. It has allowed me to be creative, to express, and to process. But now it's time for me to stop and allow God to create in me, to express to me what He wants from me, and to allow myself to be guided through a process. I am planning to spend the average hour a day I spend on blogging with God instead. Praying. Worshiping. Listening.

I will still occasionally check my e-mail, so feel free to send me a message (nathanharris0413@gmail.com) or to comment on this post or previous ones, as all comments are automatically e-mailed to me.

The final thought I would like to share is this song I wrote today on our way home from Youth Group.



PEACE.

hush

v1
a thousand questions
and new ones everyday
until it's chaos
a train wreck in my brain
so destructive
half the things I say
too distracted
in my thoughts to pray

only when I've tried everything else
I remember to remind myself

chorus

hush, be still
listen for God's will
hush, silence
wait for His presence
and He will speak
hush

V2

a thousand choices
foolishly I've made
stop the chaos
silently I'll wait
no more destruction
can't do things my way
look through distractions
for what God will say

I've not tried until I have held my tongue
for so long I've spoke, now the time has come

chorus

hush, be still
listen for God's will
hush, silence
wait for His presence
and He will speak
hush

Yes, I'm Aware . . .

I just can't seem to get this thing right.

Playing Around With My Look

I am playing around with my blog's appearance. I changed it twice today. I might need a hobby.

I'm What's Wrong With the World!

The last couple days, I've felt very moved by what the bible says about loving one another and being humble. However, I don't think it's a coincidence that while God has been laying His truth in my heart, it's been extremely difficult for me live it out.

For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Ephesians 6:12

I've had a very difficult time having a loving heart recently. Something inside me wants to be angry. I actually left work for a while today just so I wouldn't act hateful towards a co-worker. There are legitimate frustrations I feel with this person, but they do not warrant this kind of anger. Today my prayer isn't that I stop feeling this anger. My prayer is that I would truly want the anger to stop.

Humble, Love

Matthew 18:2-4 He called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. 1 John 4:7-12 Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him. This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins. Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. Phillipians 2:3-4 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.